When Did You Not Know?

and who rides their horse

down these empty streets

early

early

before the taste of morning?

the deepest grief

is sorrow untold…

your last breath will surely come

and it could be

this

one

when you are

hooked and released by the thorny wings of time

you find

your own heart

your own wings

beating

softly…

pausing at the door

the faint breath of night

rush of memory

loosens the solidity of sorrow and joy

all is bathed in golden…

and this

simply this

is the miracle of our aliveness

this explosion

this quiet tsunami

this sonic boom

that drowns us

washes us away

fills us and empties us

this extraordinary ordinary…

our watercolor eyes

rippling through acres of summer

and winter…

our nakedness

exposed

and hidden

in unutterable words…

wings of sound cannot be held

even the wind cannot fathom its own magnificence

emotions wash through us

pouring infinite colors through our eyes…

and what of the songs you sang

long long ago?

where are the words?

where is your heart of yesteryear?

and where are your bones that lay broken

under clear desert skies?

where is the dance?

in the remembering?

in the forgetting?

in these tides of ancient moons

soaring across the vault of sky,

lost in the rainbows

streaming through our eyes

remembered and forgotten

in love…

and the stars burn

and fall

angels

sing

the songs of oceans

or was it the whales

I saw on the horizon

feeling their giant hearts

beating

as I feel yours

now

intimately

this

very

breath

our first

and last

.

who dances in the setting sun

bathed in golden sea

beckoning the deep,

taunting the stars to truly shine?

who rides the prayers of ancient moon?

her drops slowly

falling

into the shimmering?

or is it midnight that sings so valiantly

only to tremble at the coming of the

long

long

night

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

after the party

before the traffic

walking home

their horns in sweet harmony

a few notes here

a few there

songs without beginning or end

silence in between

and a rooster…

some songs the wind cannot carry

other songs carry the wind

the trees

the dawn and sunset

a lifetime

into your heart…

forgotten radio remembers my song

drifting through the forest

hovering in the clearing

lanterned leaves fall through trails of dust

where footprints of sky

once pulled me…

not following any path

melodies without words hold the universe

time pours through my heartbeat

rush of nowhere listens

waiting for the words to fill my mouth

ancient and new poems ignite me

burn me

leave golden shadows in my sunset…

my eyes caress the wonder of colors blossoming

wilting

and weeping

where is the landscape no one has seen?

it is in your naked eyes

your naked heart

waiting

to be sung…

my humanness amazes me

this wonder of loving

deeply…

~~~~~

deep inside this prayer

poems drink my heart

spill my blood

fill and empty the tides…

blooming and receding suns

burn inside me

worlds spin into me

and out again onto these pages

grief despair and endless love are not separate

nor are they joined

all is

and is not

in love

~~~~~

cauldron of stars

ignites my dreams

fire of heaven kisses

gently

these lips

this tongue

that knows no words outside of love

…arch of night slides through day

vault of sky spins me

intoxicating rhythms pulse my heart

my breath

this moon

hovering

unseen

at noon

…the longing that forms my lines

cannot prevent their erasure

all breathes and sings

still

on the other side of the horizon

where we meet

and fall through sky

we are this endless

beginning-less

kiss

…my lips are formed by yours

my eyes are not

until seen by yours

…how I long for you to be

so I can find my world

…first crow

last crow

and the day in between

~~~~~

your clothes your skin your tears cannot hide you

you are already drowned

there is no safe harbor in love

seek it or not

no one can prepare

for love has already breathed you

twirled you

into its arms

your arms

your heart is

you are

the marrow

of love

wings of sky inside my heart

soar through curtains of light

always

finding

more

light…

heartbeat,

breath,

softly

feathered

transparent reflections

I am the longing to soar

endlessly

sky in sky

light in light

love in love…

…underneath the roar of the ocean

forgotten sunsets bloom

flocks of memories soar through my heart

I am the remembering

where past and future fold their wings

tenderly

I sing…

~~~~~

…and after the deluge…

bones of the sun

blood of the sunset

music of all things

…when did you not know

all is love?